turninglifespaiges

It’s confusing some days, when you’re head tells you no, and your heart says something different.

There’s a person in my life that has made a couple of appearances the last couple of years. I’d like them to stay in my life, but part of me feels like they don’t demonstrate the effort to be here.

I tend to be very forgiving in certain aspects. But I’ve realized in my life what time I have and where my efforts should be placed. They won’t be placed in people that don’t make time to get to know me, support me. Life is short, for some more than others. I don’t want my time to be spent of people undeserving of what I have to give.

When someone comes into my life, I enjoy their company, the conversation mostly. Sometimes it evolves to more than that, but not very often. I’ve learned to not give myself away to people not worthy of it. I’m not conceited, but I don’t want a relationship where both parties aren’t appreciated.

But then it becomes a question of do I pursue something with someone who’s not showing enough effort? My mind says no, they’re not interested.

But then they say something that is intriguing, and keeps me on the hook. And I look at the overall connection, and think there has to be more to this.

I’m working on myself so I respect anyone who is, and I’m not trying to impede or rush that process. Maybe that’s what he’s up to. And that needs not to be rushed. Maybe it’s God’s way of telling me I need more time, and don’t rush the process.

We’ll see where this goes, I hope for the potential future relationship, but only when we’re both ready for it. Like they say, absence makes the heart grow fonder and patience is a virtue. Hopefully both work in our favor, only time will tell.