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All my life, I’ve always been told “Make sure you can take care of yourself, don’t depend on anyone.” It’s been my mantra ever since I broke up with one of my exes I lived with. When we split, I had to start all over again and work up the money for a place to live and even a bed. I’ve worked so hard for what I have and am very happy to say I can make it on my own.

I’ve noticed I’ve been hurting lately. I like the freedom of being single and only having to worry about myself. I think today I finally figured out what I want. I don’t want someone to take care of me, I don’t need that. I can take care of myself, and I’d want my partner to do the same. I don’t want to take care of them to the point of I’d do everything for them. What I want is to take care of someone’s heart and have them take care of mine.

I want someone I can turn to when I’m having a hard day and just know I’ll be ok. I want someone to hold my hand, give me encouraging words and a kiss on the head. It not because I need it; it would be nice to not be the only one telling myself that it’s going to be ok. It gets tiring after a while. When I get weary, I want someone to just give me a little boost. I can usually jump back up myself, but a hand up would be nice every once in a while.

I want a teammate who will take turns fighting life’s fires with me. Someone who I can tag and they jump in for a bit to help. That way both of us don’t get burned out and we help each other and become stronger together.

It makes sense to me now to see that’s why I’m hurting. I’m doing a lot for other people in my life, that I don’t mind doing. I just can’t wear myself out while I don’t have a partner in my corner helping boost me back up. Someone to wind down at the end of the day with, to talk to, to love endlessly and walk with.

Someday I’ll find my partner. Maybe I already have and don’t know it yet. Here’s to hoping 🙂