turninglifespaiges

Hello! It’s been a while since I was here last, but hopefully it’ll be like a good friend when where you meet back up, it’s like you were never apart. There has been a lot going on since I last posted.

I found out shortly after my last post that I am pregnant with my husband’s and I’s first baby. We’re ecstatic and can’t wait to meet her. With pregnancy brings a whole lot of changes, including in my motivation to keep up with all the things I used to do, like post on here. Lol sorry about that. I made it back, but it’s been a journey.

There’s a lot that’s unspoken about when it comes to pregnancy. What to expect is mostly there, but there are some big things I feel like I could have been warned about and done much better with if I had known ahead of time. Everyone talks about being sick, but not that it’s not just the morning, it can be all day and your appetite may not return. What I didn’t know would happen is that my hormones would throw off my normal high motivation to concur life and get after my goals. I have been thwarted into this person I didn’t know, and lost myself in the process. It was a hard first trimester; I didn’t feel like me, I hated being nauseated all the time, and didn’t ever want to do this whole pregnancy again (my husband and I always wanted two kids, but I wasn’t sure I’d be up to it again after this one).

Fortunately for me, I did start feeling better, but my motivation is still lacking. I didn’t realize how gung-ho I was throughout life and how rare that might have been. I also didn’t realize how fast my brain processes information and what a change to that could feel like with pregnancy brain. Kids, do not take yourself for granted!

I say all of this to say even though it’s been a weird 6 months, I’m happy we’re here and baby girl’s doing great 🙂 I do wish dad could have met her, but he’ll be watching from above. Her grandma and other grandparents are here as well as her aunties and all her extended family, and she will be loved. She’ll get to experience her grandfather through me, and all the aspects in raising me he bestowed onto me. I grew up never knowing my mom’s father either, and I would have loved to meet him. I wish she didn’t have the same fate as me, but that’s the cards we were dealt.

She definitely has an ace in her pocket with her daddy though. He is going to be such a wonderful and loving dad, and be there for her with me and all our adventures. I’m so grateful for a partner like him and glad we found each other.

I have a few more months of not knowing what I want to eat, and harder times ahead of getting up off the couch. I am looking forward to meeting our baby girl and getting to watch her grow up into who she wants to be. I hope to give her the strong foundation my parents gave to me so she can achieve whatever she wants and have a better life than I have, which would be a fantastic one, since my life has been pretty blessed. Here’s to my new adventure as a mommy, and to our new family adventures all together as a family. Dad, she’s gonna make you proud, I know she will.